I have been a ghost hunter for almost 15 years. In that time I
have learned the theories used in ghost hunting and paranormal
investigation and put them into play. It has only been recently
that I have attempted to use different techniques such as using
psychics, sensitives and mediums and allowing them to utilize
their "gifts" and "talents".
I put these words into quotes because I'm not exactly sure, or
maybe it's that I'm not convinced of their abilities to say with
100% assurance that what they see is real.
I have a good friend who is a psychic or is sensitive and, while
I believe her when she says she sees ghosts and she believes she
is talking to someone, I am not able to detect any temperature
differences, energy differences or anything measurable to
determine that there is a ghost in the area. I find that that is
something that keeps me from believing in their abilities. My
skeptical side does come out and I find myself questioning
whether it's real or not. They believe it's real. I can't make
any determination logically, rationally or scientifically that
helps me believe what is being seen.
So, taking my skepticism into consideration, I was invited to a
taping of a paranormal program that airs regularly on the
Biography Channel which usually involves a seance. I have been
involved in the taping of this program before and the seance is
the cornerstone of this program and they do it in every program.
I drove to the Los Angeles area to an upscale restaurant in the
Topanga Canyon area. I enjoyed driving through the mountainous
region with its' sights and sounds of peace and tranquility. I
arrived at the restaurant and was immediately greeted by the
film crew. I removed the equipment I brought with me from the
car and waited for them to continue filming their segments with
the hosts of the show. Meanwhile, I was semi-investigating the
areas I was able to venture into without disturbing anyone else.
When we were getting situated for the séance, I opted to sit
across from the co-host/medium. He is a nice looking, young,
strong man who has a gentle personality. He is passionate about
the paranormal and attempts to educate people regarding the
paranormal. So I feel very comfortable around him as that is how
he makes me feel.
We began the séance and with cameras rolling, I felt as though
it would be the typical try-to-bring-someone-in séances that I
have been invited to in the past. Thinking nothing of it, I
attempted to join in and be proactive in the best way I could.
What I didn't expect was the churning beginning in the pit of my
stomach which would wax-and-wane but over time escalated. This
churning made me feel like the guy on the "Aliens" movie who had
something eventually tear out of his torso. This was a feeling
as though something was trying to move up from my stomach to my
chest only to be expelled from my mouth. It wasn't as though I
wanted to throw up but that was the only way I could describe it
at the time. I felt as though something wanted to come out of my
mouth but I could barely get words out. I found myself
struggling to get words out. I began to shake uncontrollably as
though I was cold but didn't feel cold other than my hands. I
didn't have a jacket on and didn't feel cold. I felt anger, not
hate, but anger well up inside of me and I could feel my eyes
narrow as I was looking at the medium seated across from me. I
don't know why this anger was directed at him nor why I was
feeling this anger. I didn't feel as though it was evil as
everyone has suggested but it was anger. It was so much anger
that I felt as though I could slam my palms on the table, lift
myself up from the table and essentially "spit" at the medium
across from me. I didn't feel as though I would spit at him but
would spit out any words I could get out. Of course, the amount
of words I wanted to get out would include spitting because they
would be coming out so quickly.
My defiance from all these reactions and the necessity, I felt,
to hold back and maintain control of myself did not allow this
to happen. The thought kept coming back but I never allowed that
to happen. All the while this was happening to me, I could hear
the medium talking to me but I couldn't make out what was being
said. I would hear a few words but nothing that made sense to
me. I was doing everything I could to maintain control. At one
point, I did feel like I was losing the battle. I could feel my
eyes narrow and this brought to mind my teasing before of when
eyes shoot daggers, that's how it felt. I know I heard the
medium say that my face looked like it was changing.
He began some type of cleansing ritual for the people at the
table to tell any bad entity to leave and go about their
business. Somehow I think it was a bit too late but he did it
anyway.
After what seemed like hours, I finally began to feel my stomach
settle down. The churning was lessened and I was beginning to
get a headache. That was when all the muscles in my body became
loose, no longer tense. I could talk again albeit not well. The
uncontrollable shaking began to stop. I could turn my head and
look from side-to-side where I couldn't before. The thickness of
the air in the room began to dissipate. It was an amazing
experience.
I now have a better understanding of what this medium may go
through program after program. I don't know if this is the
actual experience but I must admit it was a wild ride. Was I
hypnotized? Was there something in the room that caused me to
feel that way that was not paranormal? I don't know and to this
day I'm not sure. I had an experience that I will never forget
and have a hard time explaining to others. I know they would
never believe it. I know when it comes out on TV, people will
probably think I acted. I must be a great actress. This was not
acting!!
I have a new appreciation for psychics, sensitives and mediums
when they say they have physical manifestations when in the
presence of the paranormal. I know that my stomach churning
continued for at least a week afterward off and on but not to
the degree that it did that night. I don't know how I will ever
really explain what happened and I know if I do watch it on TV,
I don't know that I will believe that that is me. I will
certainly take a different look at these people who say they are
able to perform these interesting acts in the future and will be
hesitant at a séance if I'm invited the next time.
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